Message #26

UGH!! I'm so perturbed right now. I got the ACT results from Freed today. I got a 26. A 26!! I dropped a point! Not only am I perturbed about the fact that I got the same score the first two times I took the freakin' thing (27), but now mad about the fact I did worse this time. The first time I took it, I knew I had to take it, so I did and wasn't specifically opposed to it. The second time I didn't really care. (the reason I didn't care was because I was rather depressed at that particular period in time). Then, this time, I really honestly cared and wanted to get a good score. But I did worse! I try to do good and fail. It seems that I do better on things if I don't really care; and worse when I try. It's depressing. Now I'm mad, annoyed and perturbed. The reason I wanted to get a good score because I want to go to Freed (I know what you're thinking, I want to go to Freed because it's a good school, and a Christian one at that; not only the fact that Bonny's going there). Anyway. I probably won't be able to get a scholarship for Freed 'cause I'm stupid, but I'm probably going to go there anyway- even if I am in debt the rest of my life. Well, I'm done venting for now.

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