I hate hating people, but some just don't give you a choice. There are thankfully only two that are really getting on my nerves. It's all very frustrating. Both have been really good friends in the past but, unfortunately, friendships fall apart. One is just rather annoying and should, for lack of better termanology, grow up. He/she (not applying gender here) is too caught up in dragging attention from other people and 'looking cool' or whatever you want to call it, that he/she sacrifices friendships w/ his/her boastfulness and arrogance and the like. The other, also, seemingly possesses that same 'center-of-attention' personality. But he/she goes about it differently, as in, stabbing in the back whoevr he/she needs to to meet his/her ends, be it friends, enemies or just some unsuspecting pawn. The lie seems to have become his/her best skill, unfortunately.
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All that to say that sometimes life sucks. Sometimes those people you hung out w/ all that time turn out to be the people that you try to avoid at all costs.
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I try to be friendly toward them, but it takes alot to keep a smile on when I'm talking to either of them. I would wish away the quarrels w/ them if I could, but just wishing can't help. And, I fear, confronting either w/ what they've done, whether they did it in ignorance or on purpose, would end up a disaster.
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Now don't take this post wrong. I'm not trying to make myself out as some super awesome guy that should be idolized and followed by all. I have many times over the years, been a crappy friend and ignored or hurt people I loved and cared about. I've tried my best each time to make it up and so far it seems like it's gone pretty good. I can't see into evryone's minds to find out whether they really hate me or not. If there's something that I've done, have been doing, or otherwise, by all means I encourage you to tell me so that we can settle our differences.
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Well, that's all for now. That's just been something on my chest for awhile, so I thought now was as good a time as any.
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All that to say that sometimes life sucks. Sometimes those people you hung out w/ all that time turn out to be the people that you try to avoid at all costs.
.
I try to be friendly toward them, but it takes alot to keep a smile on when I'm talking to either of them. I would wish away the quarrels w/ them if I could, but just wishing can't help. And, I fear, confronting either w/ what they've done, whether they did it in ignorance or on purpose, would end up a disaster.
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Now don't take this post wrong. I'm not trying to make myself out as some super awesome guy that should be idolized and followed by all. I have many times over the years, been a crappy friend and ignored or hurt people I loved and cared about. I've tried my best each time to make it up and so far it seems like it's gone pretty good. I can't see into evryone's minds to find out whether they really hate me or not. If there's something that I've done, have been doing, or otherwise, by all means I encourage you to tell me so that we can settle our differences.
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Well, that's all for now. That's just been something on my chest for awhile, so I thought now was as good a time as any.

7 comments:
must talk.
i know exactly what you're talking about. and i know who. wow i feel special.
well i dont hate you....and im very upset to find out that you hate me. dont worry you won't have to be "frustrated" by me anymore. but i'd really like to know what i did to be called a backstabbing liar. i think thats extremely uncalled for.
:'(
for starters, who's the 'very upset person?'
it seems most/some of you have taken this post differently than its original intention. it's not a "i hate you and never want to talk to you again" post, it's a "i wish that i didn't have to feel this way about these people" post.
besides, there's no exact way to find out whether i'm even talking about you ('you' being anyone who thinks it's about them). there're probly only two or three or four (including myself) that know or ever will know for certain.
oh. well then maybe i don't know??
uh.. yeah you know.
oh. okay. well that was confusing. =)
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